I’d like to take this opportunity to announce the creation of a new website I have.
Blowtorch Pastoral is a space I created to post some of what I consider to be my more serious writing… Under the nom de plume Aaron Echoes August. It’s still in the early stages of development, but there are poems and stories already posted.
I know it will be difficult to produce content for more than one site, but I do plan to continue writing for Cereal After Sex as much as I can. I enjoy it too much to stop.
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Steel and Veronica drove in separate cars over to a place called Mango’s Tangle. The owner of the bar was named Mango and he had gotten into a lot of tangles in his life. He was from Miami, and no one could ever understand how or why he ended up in horrid Berlin, Wyoming.
He worked behind the bar a couple times a week because he liked the people and he liked to talk to them. He was loud, but mostly kind enough, depending on who you were. Mango shaved his head and had a creepy black goatee. He liked to wear Hawaiian shirts with the top buttons undone and his thick chest hairs were always crawling out and trying to escape. He wore overtight jeans with those Hawaiian shirts, and his skin, once perpetually bronzed by the Florida sun, had now faded to the cold pale flesh tone all the rest of them in town wore.
Mango smiled when he saw Veronica Eyes walk in but then frowned when Steel came in after her. He eyed Steel suspiciously as he reached for Veronica’s favorite bottled beer and set it down in front of her. “Who’s this guy?” he asked her. “Is he your new boyfriend?”
Mango had a crush on Veronica just like most of the men in Berlin, Wyoming did. He looked at Steel like he didn’t trust him, didn’t like him. “You going to have something to drink?” he snapped.
“I’ll take a tequila shot and your best IPA,” Steel answered as he reached into his pants to retrieve his wallet. He spread it open and pulled out some crisp bills and threw them on the bar. “I’ll take care of everything tonight.”
Mango snatched up the money, counted it, and put it near his till. He turned back around and tapped at his glistening head with a stiff finger. “I’ll be calculating in my mind… All that you drink.” He poured him the shot and put the beer down. “Are you new in town? I’ve never seen you in here before.”
“I’ve been here about five months,” Steel said.
“He works at the newspaper with me,” Veronica chimed in.
Mango raised his chin to study him from another angle. “Oh. A newspaper guy, huh. Do you do the writing, or take the pictures, or what?”
Steel winced after he downed the tequila shot. “Something like that.” He chased the strong drink with the beer.
“Well,” Mango began. “No one will be as good as this one.” He gestured with his head toward Veronica and smiled. “She’s on top of everything… And on the bottom, too.” He winked at her and smiled again. “Isn’t that right, Veronica?” He laughed out loud.
Veronica shook her head. She was embarrassed and excited and almost proud all at the same time. She enjoyed being popular with men. “Really? Exposing my weaknesses in front of the new guy.”
Mango laughed again as he poured someone else a drink. “Oh, you’ve been exposed all right.”
When he momentarily stepped away, Steel leaned closer to Veronica and whispered, “Why do you let him talk about you like that?”
She smiled and her eyes sparkled as she wrapped her mouth around the beer bottle she had. “Because it’s true.”
Steel looked at her face. He saw soiled perfection in everything. His heart thumped and he was getting warm from the liquor. “Can it be true for me?” he asked her in all seriousness.
Veronica giggled as Mango returned and replaced her beer with a fresh one. He poured Steel another shot. “I don’t know,” she said. “I’m still trying to figure you out. You’re an enigma or something closely resembling one. And you’re still kind of weird. You need to be genuine and penetrable for me to give myself up to you willingly.”
Steel was dejected about being called weird again and she took notice. “See… Like that.”
“Like what?” Steel grunted.
“You’re much too emotional. You take things way too personal. You have to loosen up and just be comfortable in your own skin. If I don’t see that in you… You’ll never be in me.” She got up off her barstool. “I’m going to go use the pisser. Think about it.”
When Veronica came out of the ladies’ room, she saw some people she knew gathered around a round table talking and laughing. She went right up to them and joined in the conversation. Steel envied the ease at which she could be so comfortably sociable. He watched her as she smiled and laughed. She reached out and touched a guy’s arm. She was invited to pull up a chair and be among their tribe. She glanced in Steel’s direction for just a moment, and then turned away to join her more straightforward and transparent friends.
Steel slipped out of the bar and into the night. He leaned against his car and smoked a cigarette, but he what he was really doing was waiting to see if Veronica would come out after him and invite him back into the bar. He waited and waited. His heart jumped every time the door would open, and the noise inside would rush out, then quickly fade when the door shut again. It was never her that emerged. He figured it never would be. Steel threw his cigarette to the ground and harshly snuffed it out with his shoe. He got into his car and drove home.
When he walked into his cold and dark overpriced apartment, Steel Brandenburg III wondered just what the hell he was doing with his life. He felt like with the rising of every new sun, he was dying inside more and more. He glanced out a window at the ugly city bathed in its ruins of economic depression and the dead spirits of its inhabitants.
He believed deep down within his own unfurled guts that moving to Berlin, Wyoming would turn out to be the greatest regret of his life. He was already beaten to hell when he had first arrived, and the beatings continued. He was so ready to chuck it all, take the losses, and just get the hell out of there. But the means to survive…
His phone suddenly lit up. Veronica was calling.
“Where the hell did you go?” she wanted to know.
“You drifted off to be with your friends. I just thought… I felt like you didn’t want me around anymore.”
He heard her sigh. “You fucked up again, I hope you know.”
“What did I do?” Steel wondered. His hot nerves started to kick in.
“You should have taken the opportunity to come over to me and meet my friends. Instead, you just took off. That was kind of a letdown. I was really hoping you’d stand up and be a man. I wanted you to be brave and step into the circle. But you just ran.”
“Jesus. That’s all a bit harsh.”
“You need to know I speak my mind… Completely,” Veronica said. “I’m just being honest. Don’t you value honesty?”
“You want me to be honest?”
“Yes.”
“I thought it was rude of you to just leave me hanging there at the bar. You ditched me. It was selfish and snobbish.”
“I’m selfish and snobbish!?” Veronica protested. “It’s a small town. People know each other. People are friendly to each other. We greet each other and gather, not fade into the wallpaper. You should have pulled yourself together and come over.”
“I think I’m done with this conversation… And this town,” Steel told her, and he nearly ended the call.
But then she breathed, almost in a longing desperation. “Wait… Can I come over?”
A young man in a jacket with the hood over his head stood in aisle No. 8 in a nonchalant grocery store on the softened edge of a small Southwest American town that knew no better than what the day and night gave it.
He was looking over the selection of mayonnaise the store had there. The vast number of choices boggled his mind. He threw the hood back off his head and played with his mangled, tangled hair. He considered purchasing true, authentic, real mayonnaise. He picked up one of the jars and it weighed almost as much as a plump cantaloupe. It was far too much, he decided, and put it back. Then he was drawn to something called Wonder Whip. Undecided, he just shook his head. He looked up and down the aisle and was glad he was the only one there. Cliché soft pop music played from the invisible speaker system. It made the skin on his skull crawl.
A few moments later, a woman in a dressy red coat came up the aisle and stood right next to him. She was studying the mayonnaise and wonder whips as well. She was so close to him that their arms were touching. He couldn’t believe it. The young man took one step to his left.
The woman took notice of his discomfort. “Is something wrong?” she asked.
He turned to look at her. She had twirly red hair to match her coat and wore too much makeup, and the plastic surgery was obvious. “Nothing’s wrong… I was worried that perhaps I was in your way.”
She looked at him intensely and smiled, her artificial skin glowed like grease beneath the bright store lights. “You aren’t in my way at all,” she said in a sultry, drawn-out tone. “I suppose you could say I’m a people person and… Well, to be honest, I just like to be close to others. It’s comforting. See, I’ve suffered some terrible losses in my life. Just terrible. More terrible than any human being should ever have to endure.”
The young man rubbed at his nose with a fist and tried to smile. “I’m sorry to hear that.” Then feeling somewhat ashamed or embarrassed or whatever it was, he took a step closer to her so that their arms were touching again. He listlessly pointed. “My dad wants some of this mayonnaise stuff for his sandwiches, but I have no idea which one to get,” he said. “Why does there have to be so many?”
The woman rolled her eyes in negative agreement. “Tell me about it,” she said. “That’s the whole problem with this so-called modern society of ours. They give us far too many choices. It’s overwhelming and time consuming. We are forced to expend so much energy on needless things while what matters most is set aside because we are just plain wore out.” She put her arms out in front of her in a gesture of: Just look at all this! And she slowly rotated like a ballerina in a box. “An entire aisle dedicated to condiments. It’s abhorrent.”
The young man would have agreed if he had known what abhorrent meant. He just dumbly smiled.
“You would think humanity would have more pressing things to attend to than coming up with 100 different kinds of ketchup,” she continued. “What about starvation? Or the problems of war or disease or pollution or poverty? Why isn’t anyone sitting around thinking about all that?”
She gazed at him for an answer, her eyes wide and mad with eccentric high voltage. “I don’t know why,” he said.
She heartily gestured with her arms once more and made a lackluster trumpeting sound with her plumped up mauve mouth. “Because of all this! They’re all so god damned concerned with products… Coming up with products, advertising products, displaying products, selling products,” and she craned her neck toward the ceiling and grimaced. “And building these… These grotesque cathedrals of products!”
She clamped her hands upon his shoulders and got uncomfortably close to his face. “Do you realize what the world would be like if we could undo all that has been done!? Just imagine if only we could erase all the bloody parking lots and all the buildings and all the materials and people that went into every grain of rock, stone and glass, every piece of wood, every wire, every length of pipe… Every, every everything! I’ll tell you this, young man… I imagine it. I imagine it every day. I even go down to my church twice a week and give the little man there a quarter so that my prayers will be answered before anyone else’s.” Her emotions suddenly drooped. “But it’s like God is the god damn lottery… I never win.” And she pulled her hands away from him and looked down at the shiny floor for a few moments. She was softly mumbling something he could not understand.
The young man became concerned that a lunatic had hitched herself to him and would never let him be. He took her pause of madness as opportunity, and he quickly snatched a jar of mayo from the shelf and started to walk away.
“Wait!” the woman cried out when she noticed his departure, and she trotted after him. She put a hand on his shoulder again, this time with a more forceful grip and one that turned him. “Don’t you care that as a society we put greater importance on products than we do people!? Don’t you care that people are diving off buildings because someone chose the love of things over plain old wonderful love!?” Her eyes bounced rapidly back and forth during the time of her latest concerned gaze at him. A tear came out of an eye, rolled down her painted face, and dangled at her jawline before falling.
The young man pulled away from her and nervously fumbled for an answer. “Sure, I care. I care very much about the state of the world… But right now, I really need to get home so my dad can have this mayonnaise for his sandwich. He’ll refuse to eat it without, and he needs to eat because he’s a diabetic. I care about that as well, mam. Have a good night.” He moved with purpose to the checkout, paid, and quickly rushed out of the store.
The young man clutched the sack holding the jar of mayonnaise and walked as fast as he could toward home. His body of quick pace skimmed along the outer face of an adobe wall that separated Spanish-style homes from the streets.
Where he was in the city was higher up and he could gaze down onto the floor of the inhabited desert, and it was like a gridwork of multi-colored lights and lines. He could make out popping blues and reds that indicated police were in action. He gazed north to the modern complex bathed in white and fizzing light that was his high school. He could see the massive parking lot and the rectangular piece of green and oval metal glint around it that made the football stadium. He was glad to be breathing the night air despite its tint of poisoned atmosphere.
He looked up and the light pollution slowly faded, and the sky grew deeper and darker, and he could see that orgasmic splash of silver screaming stars across the witch pitch firmament. He saw the spinning planets and man’s rushing satellites and golden green comets and he thought about the mad rant of that crazy woman in the grocery store and wondered if she wasn’t all that mad after all. His heart was pounding. She had really shaken him up.
Once the young man got home, he unlocked and went through the door by the garage and into the kitchen. He shed his coat and hung it on a peg. He set the grocery store bag on the table and withdrew the jar of mayonnaise and set it down as well.
His father looked up at him and struggled to smile. The run-down man had set out in waiting before him: a plate, packages of sandwich meat and cheese, iceberg lettuce leaves peeled from a fresh head, a slice of wet tomato, a loaf of bread, and an empty glass next to a half gallon of milk. “I thought you would never get back,” he said in a grainy voice, and he shakily reached for the jar of mayonnaise that his son had opened and broken the freshness seal on.
“Sorry about that, pop,” he said. “Some crazy old lady started talking to me at the grocery store about all that’s wrong with the world.”
The father seemed disinterested as he spread the mayo across the bread slices with a shining silver butter knife. He grunted. “There’s a lot of crazy people…” and he pointed with the knife, “Out there.”
The young man pulled out one of the kitchen table chairs and sat down in it. He looked across at his father who was meticulously assembling his sandwich. “Do you ever wonder if it’s the crazy people that might be right about everything and the ones we think of as normal are the actual madmen?”
His father raised his eyebrows at that notion before taking a big bite out of the sandwich he held before him with two hands. He thought as he chewed. He picked up the glass of milk he had poured and took a long drink. He ran a paper napkin across his mouth. “Now that’s a thought that should be taken seriously.”
“You think so?”
“Absolutely. You should pursue it.”
They sat there in complete quiet as the father finished his sandwich and left the table. The young man watched him as he slowly shuffled off to the recliner in his den that sat in front of a large television. The father made an old man groan as he settled into his favorite spot. The television illuminated and soon the son heard the crack of a bat on a baseball and the sound of cheers and frenzied announcers that followed drowned out everything.
After the young man cleaned the kitchen, he went and stood in the opening to his father’s den. The older man was already snoring. He came around to the front of him and laid his favorite blanket out across his resting body and soul. He looked down and watched as the older man slept and it wasn’t long before the son saw himself in the exact same position in 50 years or so. He left a lamp on but turned the volume of the television down to just an audible softness.
The young man then went to the large window in the front living room and pulled the curtain aside so he could look out and say “goodnight” to the once classic world. The glow of the city out and below had somewhat dimmed, but the moon above was bright and thriving. Then he heard the calling and felt the vibrations of their entrance from somewhere else, and there suddenly on the quiet street beneath a streetlamp pink glow came a herd of ancient people, and they were barely clothed, and they held magic and creation and civilization in all their hands and their throng cast hopeful as they made their way into the new world to forge an old way of maddening and wonderous life.
In the toiled tick-tock of a fat blue dusk, Steel Brandenburg III stood at the stove in the kitchen of his grossly overpriced apartment on the west side of Berlin, Wyoming.
He was frying two tombstone-shaped slabs of reduced-sodium SPAM in a heavy black iron skillet. He thought about life as the meat sizzled and popped and filled the room with the smoky smell of a cheap life of struggle. He wondered how bad the repercussions would be for pranking the evil chubster Carrie Gould with the trick gum. He suddenly didn’t care. He didn’t care if they fired him or if she had him arrested for assault… As long as she didn’t sit on him, he laughed. “I’m just not into that,” he said aloud to a pale-yellow wall slightly splattered with grease. He suddenly felt like a sad clown.
Steel turned off the burner and used a white plastic spatula to transfer the SPAM to a piece of waiting toast slathered with mayo that sat on a dark blue plate that was chipped in one spot. He topped the SPAM with a thick slice of tomato and a crisp piece of iceberg lettuce. He put down the top piece of toast and gently squashed the sandwich with his palm to connect all the parts.
He moved the plate to the table and set it down next to a tall glass of chocolate milk. He sat down, scooted his chair in, and began to eat and drink in silence. His mind was chugging with a revenge repertoire. He was set on paying that asshole Craig Nusmerg a visit. That very night.
Carrie Gould was sprawled out on her bed as much as her large body would allow it. She was slowly flipping through her diary and reading over all the entries she had made about Steel Brandenburg III. The inky red hearts she had drawn were now all deflated after she crossed through them with hard Xs that nearly tore the paper. The words her eyes traced again and again made her ache. Tears were falling down her face like slow, gentle rain in Africa. She put the tip of the pen to a blank page, sighed, and began to write:
Dear Diary,
Today was absolutely one of the worst days of my life. The worst. I can’t even describe the depth of my pain, the emotional torture I have suffered at the very hands of the only man I ever loved. Steel… Why are you like real steel? So cold, so metal, so heartless. Maybe if I had told him a long time ago how I felt, maybe things would have been different. He was so unbelievably cruel to me today. He played a prank on me with trick gum that tasted of mustard and made my mouth yellow. I was mortified. Absolutely mortified. And he laughed at me. He laughed out loud. I’m nothing but a joke to him. And the worst of it… He called me a “fat sack of shit.” Maybe he’s right. Maybe that’s all I am after all.
She lifted the pen from the tear-stained page and began to cry even harder. She began to wail like an injured whale in the ocean. Then there came the sound of feet on the stairs and a knock at the door of her bedroom. “Carrie? Is everything okay in there? Are you crying again?”
It was her mother. Carrie Gould still lived with her in the house she grew up in. Even though she was an adult, Carrie Gould had a hard time navigating the real world and her beloved mother was sympathetic about that and had agreed she could live with her as long as she wanted. “You’ll always be my child,” she often said. “Always.”
The door opened and the mother walked in. She looked upon her sobbing daughter with pained pity. “What is it, dear?” she asked as she went to sit on the small slice of space that remained on the bed. “What’s the matter?”
Carrie sniffed and closed her diary to keep her true feelings hidden from her mother. “It’s nothing,” she told her mother. “It’s nothing at all.”
Steel Brandenburg III blasted Oasis on the stereo in his white Toyota Tacoma as he drove the night streets of Berlin, Wyoming. The streetlights were gaseous and wet due to a rare rain that had come over the city. The wipers made a noise against the windshield as he drove. Droplets of water were frenzied in the headlight beams ahead of him.
Once he reached downtown, he pulled into the parking lot of the newspaper and used his key to get into the office. The reserve lights burned like yellow pollution in the dead of night dim as he strolled through. Computer screens glowed in places. Buttons on phones flashed with messages. He could hear the clambering of the pressmen as they worked in the back. He heard the obnoxious voice of Craig Nusmerg above all the others.
Steel made his way back to the press room just as they walked to the back dock for a smoke break. He followed them and listened to them make remarks about the weather.
When he emerged from the shadows, Craig Nusmerg turned and noticed him there. “What the hell are you doing here?” he said with a squinting eye of suspicion.
“I forgot something,” Steel lied. “Can I have one of those?”
Craig Nusmerg scoffed. “No. Cigarettes cost money and I can’t just hand them out to everyone.” He turned to one of the others. “Ricky. You got money coming out of your ass. I don’t even know why the hell you even work. Give Steel a cigarette.”
Ricky was skinny and dirty and was missing a few teeth. “To get out of the house and away from that nag of a wife of mine and them damn screaming kids. God, I swear. All they do is scream. I don’t care how much money I have; I’ll always be looking to get out of there.” He reached into his pack and handed Steel a cigarette and the use of his pink Bic lighter.
Craig Nusmerg laughed out loud. “You need to get yourself fixed and quit knocking her up… Damn baby maker. The damn world is already too crowded.”
Steel lit the cigarette and exhaled his first drag from the edge of the dock and into the rain that was more like mist.
Craig Nusmerg redirected his attention back to Steel. “So, just what the hell are you doing here so late. I thought you were a 9 to 5 man like all the rest of them fools,” and he gestured his head toward the main office.
“I just had something to work on that couldn’t wait… And I wanted to talk to you.”
“Talk to me? What the hell for?”
The other pressman tossed their smokes and moved around Steel and Craig Nusmerg as they returned to work.
“I wanted to apologize for the other night… At the party,” Steel said. “I was way out of line with all that talk about gravy. It was stupid. Sorry about that.”
Craig Nusmerg shifted nervously. He looked at Steel as if he were the strangest person alive. “Whatever, dude.”
“No. Seriously, Craig. I’m sorry. I thought maybe we could be friends. Maybe we could hang out some time, go grab a few beers at the pub.”
Craig Nusmerg let out a laugh. “Friends? I don’t think so. I’ve got plenty of friends. Hang out? No way.” He took one last drag of his smoke and tossed it into the darkness before walking away.
Steel feigned disappointment. “Wait,” he said. “All right. I guess I’ll just let you get back to work then.” But before Craig Nusmerg completely walked away, Steel moved after him. He quickly pulled something out of his pocket. “Hey. Do you want a piece of gum, Craig?”
“Gum?”
“Yeah. Gum.”
Craig Nusmerg looked around to make sure no one was watching before reaching out and taking the piece. He didn’t want anyone to think he was gay. “Okay, I guess so.”
“See you later, man,” Steel said, and he walked off. He paused alone in the editorial department and waited for it. Then it came. The angry wail was like a dinosaur’s and the solo stampede coming after him even greater.
“You son of a bitch!” Craig Nusmerg cried out, his mouth stained green and spitting as he burst into the room. “I’ll fucking kill you for making me eat shit gum!”
A light suddenly illuminated on someone’s desk in the corner. Veronica Eyes was suddenly aglow like a fox angel. “What’s going on, boys?” she wanted to know. “Fighting again?”
“This son of a bitch gave me gum that tasted like shit,” Craig Nusmerg loudly complained.
Veronica Eyes giggled. “And you should look at yourself in a mirror.”
“What?” Craig Nusmerg said, pawing at his own mouth and tongue.
“You’re all green,” Veronica said. “But it serves you right, don’t you think. You did pour gravy all over his head at my party.”
Craig Nusmerg steamed as he looked at them both. He pointed at Steel. “This isn’t the end of it,” he growled. “I’ve got my eye on you, mother fucker. You better watch yourself… And you better watch out for me.” He turned and stomped off.
For some odd reason, Steel wanted to give Veronica a hug. Then he thought it not so odd and moved on her. She felt good in his arms. She smelled good. He wanted to kiss her, but he was so caught up in the moment that he didn’t clearly realize she was forcefully pushing him away.
“Whoa pal. You can thank me for saving your life from over there,” she said.
Steel took a few steps back. He was horribly embarrassed. “Sorry about that… How did you do that?”
“Do what?” Veronica wondered.
“Make him back off like that. I was sure he was going to beat the hell out of me.”
“Women have a way,” she began. “We’re smarter and stronger than men. We don’t resort to violence at the drop of a hat… And we’re sleeping together. He knows he needs to keep himself in line and not ruffle my feathers if he still wants to get some.”
Steel was shocked. “What? You and Craig Nusmerg?”
“It’s not exclusive, or a relationship. It’s just back-alley lust. It’s completely selfish on both our parts and that’s fine.”
Steel thought about it for a moment and wondered if she could be selfish with him as well. “Do you want to go get a drink?” he suddenly asked her.
He was delightfully surprised when she said, “Yes.”
I went to the hall of archives in the low whiteness of Cinderella City. It was all covered in a faint white dust. It was the place we collected ourselves in case we forgot. The hall was one giant book of all the history of man back on Earth — how we came to be, what we did, where we finally ended up. And now it all sat here in a hollow, silent shell to be revealed only to me now. Perhaps others will come from the sky or the tunnels or the clouds, but for now, I am its caretaker and sole reveler.
There was some serious moonlight on the edge of my heart as I went to the far end of the archives where there was a long bank of thick windows and directly beneath them tables with neatly placed chairs. It’s where the lonely ones would go with their books and their scripts and their digital pulses and they could look at the stars or the snowball as they read, studied, contemplated, disappeared into the wilderness of their own wavelength minds of tormented loneliness or rather bliss for some I suppose.
I took a deep breath. I couldn’t fathom what was wrong with me. But alas, of course, it must be… The loneliness. I moved closer to one of the windows and pressed a hand against it. When I looked out onto the surface of Pluto, it was somehow no longer Pluto. All I saw now was a gently flowing meadow of the most perfect greens and yellows that there could ever be. My entire existence was suddenly peace as I stared out at the vastness of the field below the wide gasp of all that is space.
Then there came the vision of the chair in the very center of the meadow. It looked like a very comfortable chair. It looked like a chair that one might find in the mahogany study of a professor. The fabric was royal blue in color, a dark blue, a perfect shade of enlightened death blue that shone deeply in contrast to the colors of the meadow. I suddenly became aware that the chair wanted me to sit in it. The oxygen levels must be low, I thought to myself. How can this be? And then the door that appeared, a simple door of a house on a farm with four pieces of rectangular glass in its guts, begged me to open it and step out. But wouldn’t I die? Why? Why would you want me to do this? I won’t be able to breathe. The Paper People were speaking to my mind of glue. I put my hand on the door and pushed. The air was suddenly warm and filled with the golden blessings of sun.
I waded slowly through the meadow. There was a slight breeze. The chair nearly glowed as I moved closer to it. There were sparse trees of knotted gray trunks and limbs, a few green leaves fluttering. I sat in the chair, and it fit me perfectly. I felt like a king. I was King Captain Willow at last.
I closed my eyes to simply dream and when I opened them there was a boy dressed in all white and he was just standing there and staring at me. “What are you doing in my chair?” he asked in a soft, innocent voice.
“Your chair?”
He moved closer. He looked princely almost with the way he carried himself.
“Yes. I’m the only one who is supposed to sit there. I won’t ask you twice to get out of it.”
“Certainly,” I told him and I got up out of the chair. “I didn’t realize it belonged to anyone in particular.”
He moved past me and climbed into the chair. He cocked his head and looked at me. His blonde waves of hair rolled and crashed in the wind. “What are you doing here?” he asked me.
“I came through a door,” I said, and I turned and pointed. “From over there.”
The princely boy craned his neck to look. “There’s no door there. I don’t believe you.”
“Well, there was door there and I went through it.”
He looked me over in awe and wonder. “You have strange clothes,” he said.
“I’m an astronaut. From Earth.”
“Earth?”
“It’s a planet… Not much different than this one. You don’t know of Earth?”
The boy looked confused. “I never heard of Earth.”
“Do you live here alone? Are there others here with you?”
The boy looked down at his lap and then back up at me. “No. I’m the only one.”
“Then how did you get here? Surely you came with someone.”
“I’ve always been here. This is my home, my life. But if you came here from a place called Earth… Do you have a purpose?”
“Well, I swam across the solar system in a ship,” I told him. “I came here to study and learn and build and be part of a new society for my people.”
“Then there are others like you?” the boy asked, slightly alarmed.
“Not anymore,” I answered. “I’m the only one left. There were some problems and miscalculations. My only purpose now is to carry on my mission as best I can and hope someone else, someday, comes to join me… Before it’s too late. My name is Captain Willow. Do you have a name?”
“There’s no need for a name when you’re the only one,” he answered. “I just am.”
“Then I’ll call you Am… Because I must call you something.”
The boy looked small in the chair and he began swinging his legs and looking around. I began to wonder if he was tiring of my company. But where was I to go when I really didn’t know where I was?” I suppose I could just walk away and hope for the best, I thought.
He surprised me with what he said next. “I want you to take me to this place you came from, the place on the other side of the door. I want to see it for myself.”
“I don’t know if that would be the best thing to do. It could be dangerous. It’s very different than this place, whatever and wherever it is.”
He hopped out of the chair and stood as tall as he could for a boy. “I’m not afraid. I’m never afraid.”
I found him to be relatively harmless, and I thought that he even might come in useful in some small way. Perhaps he could lead me back to the door and to the station… And beyond those thoughts I did not know what else. “All right, Am. You can come with me. For now. But when I feel the need for you to come back, you must listen to me and do what I say. Do you understand?”
“I’m more than you think I am,” Am said. “But I suppose I will have to prove that to you… Now, show me the way to the place you came to be here.”
CEREAL AFTER SEX 