• The Scarlet Sea

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    I pointed a .45 at my reflection in the sea

    pulled the trigger and started to bleed

    She came up behind me

    Wrapped her arms around me and whispered

    We spend our whole lives, going out of our minds

    I looked at my rippled, red reflection in the salty water

    Saw her face, came to my senses, somehow

    when my senses seem so radical lately

    broken bottles cutting scars

    I held her hopes to the stars

    when night finally fell

    and we cradled beneath the moon

    the air began to cool

    and she led me back inside

    to show me I hadn’t died

    the wounds all memory now

    healed and stored away

    in a life gone astray

    We laid on the bed and watched TV

    237 channels and there’s nothing on

    I finally fell asleep

    the waves out there silent and still

    the sea as calm as glass

    The sun broke through in the morning

    and I awoke

    alone, sheets void of any angel

    and realized  that love was but a dream 

  • Eve 13

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    There are faces in the cold

    Staring back through the snow

    Heart blood love letters tracing the stars of space

    I am alive inside beautiful girl

    But the traffic takes me away

    The noise, the lights, the mad rushing all fever and pitch

    If to just hold you in second’s dawn

    In a moment of green, quiet peace

    To unleash myself all over you

    Like love in hummingbird wings

    Why is it I am astray in stratosphere stars so cold?

    When I should be lying beside you

    Warm, passionate, safe

    Beautiful dreams with you

    Am I just a gun and not love?

    I’ve been waiting for years 

    To cradle your heart and warmth

    Beside my bedside window

    Where the hollow wind blows like mad

    And the chill covers all my dreams

    Dreams of you, beautiful dream

    That tender harness beneath winter cover

    You breathe alive desires lied

    I am bent over, broke, and full of wishes

    To bring light to your life and heart

    Whimsical gestures

    Too tame with leather glove

    If only anyone really knew

    That endless moment of love

  • Time Machine Lime

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    I saw limes twisted and sucked dry, void of juice
    lying loose, tying the noose, the end of the drip
    all roly poly on the happening quartz counter
    like a space wanderer in a cradle
    bedding down for the log night
    dreaming broken glass kaleidoscopic tight
    to the missions of a windmill baby lost in my arms
    I heard the howl of my own soul
    begging for a clinical reprieve
    from all the jury-rigged junk.

    I took a stroll on the midnight drive skyline high  
    a view from Plaza 8 bricked-up town
    and the mesa where I talked to the cows crossing my
    path and the aluminum clowns were all the rage
    And I crashed out underneath the sky, beneath the eye of
    the butter melt sun.
    I didn’t care if the tarantulas
    or the scorpions
    came home for dinner
    to devour me
    as I wailed in my state
    for the water of my life
    the wind of my life
    the distance that has devoured all our pasts
    the soul crimes committed, remitted
    that will leave us forever stranded on the wings
    of a bleached thread struggling for life
    underneath my morning glory sky of astronaut zest.

    The gory story of all that is consumed through a
    backward tick, brass pendulum chime of my heart
    swinging ever deeper like Poe through my bones
    Perhaps I should have stayed
    in that beautiful torturous L.A.
    blasting my ride down DelAmo Blvd at 80 mph plus
    the wind ruffling my feathers for the night
    taking a right at the carnival mall all bright
    blasting my rod up Lakewood Blvd swizzle stick land
    in search of another streetlight, another fight, another tip of the hat
    to the deli guru at Alpha Beta and the spinning meat slicer
    does he remember he has broken feet
    the causeway of the midnight beat
    before I shoved my hand like Superman
    through the ceramic stall of some Ceylon grotto
    that place of the double vision hall, the green mist
    The jungle land harbors trickle down my wrist
    blood balloons full of question marks and Listerine rain
    and the boom of a heavy dungeon door like black magic
    and the mage of L.A. wonders — Is this what it has come to?

    Blackness in the sun, teary-eyed stumbles in the great
    desert void with no warm chandelier bed to hear my pleas for
    rest of the on-holiday dreaming kind
    This all just a ramble, a bramble of ghosts
    a filtering of a fractured fractal in the dead of night
    walks across barren fields decapitated with wine
    and the songs of a cuckoo clicking across the wires
    uttering unbelievable tales of ocean liner fever
    on a sea of burnt sienna glass and the wounds of town.

    Hush. Can you hear the whisper of the Pecos
    the vein pumping the blood mud of our sins through another
    hole in the desert plane, underneath the machines hiss
    And I’m off the mark this nochy (night)
    my arrow is like melting rubber remnants of old dolls in cardboard attic boxes
    the barrel of my stun gun like a spent erection flapping in the
    harrowing winds of copulation nation
    The other planet smiled so sweetly today,
    like it was so glad to see me
    I don’t even know where it is
    but it had a salacious memory
    like a Hollywood Blvd lime from another time.

  • Orifice Clouds

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    The spirited heartbreak

    Of the witch harpooned

    The effervescent moon

    Drifting dream beams

    The sauce of life

    The sauce of the sky

    Stars and ravens up so high

    I see sleep

    And the structures of man

    Dust hobbits and wolverine people

    Traverse the Earth

    I am walking Northbog

    Ridiculous perimeters

    Sea urchins and starfish

    Stop and breathe…

    I see yellow

    I see an English candy store made of stone

    Moss sidings, charming windows

    The smell of sugar past the doorway

    Cases upon cases of candy

    Jars filled to the brim

    All the colors of the universe

    Cyrillic script on the ceiling

    And there again

    The man with the plastic hand

    Klonking the counter top

    Telling stories of lizard people

    He swears they are real

    A UFO fanatic, too

    He talks of their Slavic slant and many moons

    The bell on the door trinkles goodbye

    I look up to the sky

    Peach blue and orifice clouds

    Destiny all nonsense now

    Like lava in a spaceship

    The universe our tablecloth


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  • Dream Leaps

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    Rows upon rows upon rows

    Apartment buildings

    Different colors, shapes, and sizes

    Dream leaps across the lawns

    Buttresses like butter

    In the warm, misty dawn

    Four bedrooms, wood paneling

    Room after room of hideous furniture

    My table in the dust

    1800 dollars a month

    Voices in the hall, in my head

    I can’t afford this

    Psychiatrist drives me to the next building

    Agent meets us on a Segway

    Korean woman in a dress

    The building is bleached white

    We never go in

  • The Wishing Window

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    A solitary chair by a window

    The room is purple haze

    A thin veil of curtain pushed aside

    The view is sunrise on the water

    And thoughts diving in

    Wanting to swim

    In the deep and narrow periwinkle mauve

    The yawn of a ship dispersed in space

    I have no feelings, I have no face

    I look out, I look within

    No answers, more questions, more high doubts

    Thoughts stagnant like scum

    A pond of mysteries and misery and Halloween mirrors

    Too much movement and sound

    I want to close my eyes

    Sitting in the chair at the window

    Deep breaths and vibrations of life

    I shake and pause

    The world comes to light

    Slowly sliding into place

    Joy berates me

    Fear escapes me

  • Free Falling in a Mall

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    You can’t say “write like magic”

    It isn’t right to be so tragic

    And Nob Hill hip

    And Q-Town super fresh

    So write like magic despite the tetherships of the world

    I ache to conjure up all the words I need for literary architecture

    Why doesn’t my mind simply bleed?

    It’s a spring dream these days

    Warm in the guts

    And people look at me like I’m crazy

    But they’re not wrong

    I’m always rehearsing scenarios in my head

    A little theater played across the stage of my mind

    And sometimes I feel like a vending machine cafeteria

    I suddenly got scared about something

    Life mostly

    Thinking back to Tom Petty days

    Free falling in a mall

    Then flying, floating, watching, waiting, approaching

    Tasting, running, tumbling to Alaska

    And now all is white and cold

    All alone, wilderness

    Ice, shelter, fire, water, food

    Maple crème sandwich cookies by the blaze

    Suddenly alone and broken and laughing

    A hungry heart and soul begs for mercy


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  • Psychedelic Encounters in an Empty Vessel

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    Pink jukebox spins an array of psychedelic tunes in a diner on the wrong side of the desert where the crows dance and bow and she wipes away the sweat from her frosted brow. She thinks it’s cold outside. Cold in the desert. What does she know? It can get cold in the desert. There’s wild wind and snow on those blankets of dirt. And then I don’t like to hear what she says. Toilet breath. Busted lip. Motorcycle up her crotch. Says she’s going to shoot the place up. For what? The demise of manners. She eats fierce cinnamon flavored chewy candies. Shouts something in German. I think she’s a Mad Max type. All hyped up on jolly rogers and gasoline fumes. She pulls out her cell phone and starts taking pictures of the diner. Says she wants to have something to remember it by before she burns it down. Shoot it up? Burn it down? Which is it going to be? Why not just come inside for a nice piece of pie.

    Then a lemon-yellow sun setting. A feeling of void. I keep stopping. The white woman climbs into a gunmetal-gray submarine in the harbor and dives to a new destiny. The tourists are dumb and laughing. The ice cream shop across the street is a memory machine. Yellow light, mirrors, tight booths, the smell of candy, the smell of sweet, the small glasses of water. There’s too much time to undo, unwrap, unravel. The monorail, a life derailed. I recall the charming neighborhoods. Stuck in time, just a boy, wearing a brown tweed coat with a cap and eyes squinting by the angle of the sun. There’s a driveway and a covered porch, the brownish-pink house. I remember standing by the fireplace and reaching my hand in to touch the flames and it never burned. Not me. What am I?

    What am I going to do today? The unanswered question. My vessel is empty. My soul doesn’t care. Love is questionable. Memories keep popping. I wonder if I should shave. I’m a tangled mess, a negative blessing of the head. An aqua-blue heart thump. The thought of the hours and how I will fill them. It never used to be like this. Being afraid of time even as it slips away with each blink of the eyes, with each beat of the heart. The birds keep singing, the breeze rolls in through the open windows. The teeth are breaking; the limbs keep locking up. I am fighting my own wishes and dreams, and I don’t want to. I want to be set free.

  • The College of Cannibalism

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    A skirmish of desire

    I fight the voracious appetite of distraction

    But I eat myself alive

    Like in architecture school

    The room, the windows

    The drawing tables

    The long walk across campus on a fall day

    I never fit in

    Especially when they asked me to disrobe

    A study in free-hand drawing

    To loosen the wrists and loosen the mind

    Long days turn to long nights

    Lonely Colorado skies so big and bold

    And all that I’m told

    By the flagrant fragrant world

    The smell of drawing pencil ash

    The sword-like quality of the architect’s scale ruler

    Staring out windows, the world an open vista

    And I misjudged the trajectory of my life

    In the blink of an eye

    I said goodbye

    And now I hunger for the old wounds

    I long to eat time and start over